Oh...I haven't been there for the whole week. Because I didn't want anything...no food, no drink, no sleep... just smoke. I dreamed to kill myself slowly. The reason? The reason is simple - love. Questionless, love is good feeling... But not for me and not in this case.In short, we have been very good friends for a long time. But he always wanted something more from our relations...but i was blind by another man.He found the girl...I like her, she is very nice and very-very kind. She loves him so much!But he doesn't...he wants to be with me. But he can't, he can't hert her!Too much "but" in my text...We have no sex...We have just kisses... But it doesn't matter.This feeling will kill me... I am just a girl with a broken heart. But why doesn't he shoot me? The gun is loaden...I tried to go away...But I am too weak for a strong decision.I tried, honestly, I tried a lot of times... But how can I say "good-bye" to somebody, whithout whom your cosmos is empty? It's my own blueberry nights.I asked him for freedom. I asked: "Live me alone with the waste"... But he couldn't...I tried to go away but it's the wrong time for somebody new...I don't know how I suppose to hold with it.It's not alright.
(HE and HIS girl)
Comments (6)
Wow, talk about complications...... ugh.....
Yeah, sweet... Very complicated situation!
Well, I don't know what you should to do...maybe just to let this situatuion go and look how it all will be?
@pctoolbin - And he'll never see me cry
@Shuroop - it is the one possible way....
@mishkastyle - Guess you gotta be strong like that.....must be difficult tho.....
that is too sad... :(